Oct 2007
Hauerwas
10/31/07 09:24 Categories: Theology
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Thinking about... Stuff
10/30/07 10:11 Categories: Church
I think I’m interested in Christian Ethics more than theology because of its practical nature. I’m a bit scared of intellectualism. That is a bit misleading. I am a deep intellectualist who has a hard time with faith often because my mind cannot understand all that ’spiritual stuff’. Ethics is a way that I can get at both - well maybe not exactly the ’spiritual stuff’, but definitely the ‘loving your neighbor’ stuff.
So, Emily and I were at church on sunday. Well, we were at our not-church church, which is to say it is some sort of house church which is still seeking to define itself. But during that time a couple things hit me: 1. Ethics is a possible bridge between the ivory tower and life! More importantly, 2. I think I approach God more intellectually than I should. I was watching Chris, who is a dad. His son was sleeping on his chest and Chris was enjoying the worship. His son knew that he was so safe, so secure, so loved. Somehow I think I’ve lost that with God. During worship I thought about God, about how I don’t go lie on his chest and enjoy his love and mercy. I almost don’t even know how to anymore. Maybe that is painting the picture a bit darker than it needs to be. The point is, God wants to be Chris to us. He wants us to come, let our guard down, and just snuggle up. To be cared for. That is one of the aspects of God. He also wants us to get on our feet and walk, but that does not need to be all the time. There are definitely times for rest, for comfort.
I once heard an analogy about God. A little boy wanted to cook his mom breakfast for mother’s day, so he tried his hand at pancakes. The pancakes didn’t really turn out and he completely trashed the kitchen. He was getting more and more frustrated throughout the whole process. Eventually his mom came into the kitchen, but instead of freaking out at the mess, she saw her son’s frustration and effort - she understood what he was trying to do. She gave him a big hug and helped him finish the pancakes and clean the kitchen. In a similar sort of way God is like that mom, helping to fix and clean up our mistakes. But I was also told that God wants us to grow up. To reach maturity - just as that mother wants the son to learn from his mistakes and become proficient at making pancakes and cleaning up the kitchen on his own. Right now I’m not so sure about that conclusion. It seems that the closer relationship is better in the midst of the brokenness. Yet, what really happens is that as the boy grows older, the relationship can stay just as close, but it takes on different characteristics. They don’t bond over messes, they bond over conversation, going for walks together, and all the new and different ways of relating.
I have associated that growing up with intellectualizing my faith. That is how we grow up to relate with God. But is that true? As in most cases, I think Jesus gives us a great example. If we are to take the Biblical story seriously, then he engaged with the Father by going about the Father’s work, which meant caring for the poor, healing the sick, fasting, praying, and there were some times for intellectual sparring. However, the point is that there was a deeper spiritual component - and by spiritual I mean supernatural, otherworldly, and mystifying - to his relationship to the Father. In essence, this spirituality is not only intellectually, or only concerned with social justice, or only concerned with living in a right way. It seems deeper, more fully, seeking peace and reconciliation between ourselves and God, enabling us to rest in the Father, however that looks like.